i have a very good friend whom i am sure each of you has at least heard of.
she is like a goddess in the world of adoption.
mrs r is super funny, and super insightful at the same time.
the other day on her blog she said something that rang so true to me...
i actually told her i was going to print it in vinyl and hang it on my wall.
her beautiful thought was this,
"Although each of my kids did not look like my husband and I when they were born, I recognized their spirits.
They felt like home to me."
oh, how true this is.
when dealing with foster care, you never really know what you will be getting.
you never know what the outcome will be.
i have said it before, and i will say it again: we are NOT the typical foster case.
it is extremely rare to only have infant placements.
its even more rare for a couple to adopt 75% of their infant placements.
WE ARE NOT NORMAL!
can i share a secret with all of you without sounding pretentious?!?
before each of our babies came, i KNEW that they were coming.
some people call it mother's intuition, some people call it crazy... i just know that the Lord had his hand in the building of our family. he guided us at just the right time.
before each child came, i underwent a CRUSHING feeling- to the point that it was hard to breath.
i knew without a doubt that MY child was on its way to our family.
the only time i didn't have this confirmation was with our foster placement, RJ. he was never meant to be mine. he was meant to prepare me for life with 2 babies.... and he did a great job of that.
about 7 months prior to having miss d placed in our home, i woke Hubster up in the middle of the night in a dead sweat. i told him that i knew our child was on its way and we needed to find them. when we got the call about miss d, i had a week to prepare emotionally. (it was one intense week!) i went back and read my journal... the night i had that overwhelming "intuition" was the night miss d came into this world.
it was a beautiful revelation.
the day we met her, I RECOGNIZED HER SPIRIT.
she was so familiar. her face, her eyes, her smell! everything seemed like a vague memory.
the morning that sassy pants came home to us, i had that same crushing feeling while i was running errands with my dad. i actually made him drive around a neighborhood that i knew Tummy Mommy frequented. when we got the call that afternoon, it was a beautiful revelation.
when i held her, i knew she was safe.
when miss d smooched her cute little face, that recognition came flooding back.
I RECOGNIZED HER SPIRIT.
some people may think that sounds silly since the secondary goal was reunification and we had weekly visitation with Tummy Mommy. i think that spiritual recognition was CRUCIAL.
it was the Lord's way of preparing my heart for an open relationship with Tummy Mommy.
knowing that sassy pants was MY daughter, made it easy for me to bond with Tummy Mommy.
it made it easy for me to want to be with her and get to know her on a level i had not been able to do while we were fostering miss d. the funny thing is, I RECOGNIZED TUMMY MOMMY'S SPIRIT TOO! like she was always meant to be a part of my family, one way or another.
this same type of recognition happened with little man too.
i knew long before we got the call that our son was headed our way.
when he came, i was so worried about him leaving that i tried NOT to have those feelings.
i pushed them out of my head every chance i could.
but when we met with his birth mother and she would talk about adoption and what life would be like in the future, i started to let the Lord take over.
even though my heart wanted to believe that this sweet boy was part of my eternal family, i couldn't get my mind to let go and believe this.
the night before the TPR, i cuddled that sweet boy in my bed, and something about him...
the smell maybe.
I RECOGNIZED HIS SPIRIT in that moment.
at court the next day, his birth mother relinquished her parental rights.
i knew that he was home.
did anybody else RECOGNIZE their babies?!?
i love that i have been blessed with these 3 sweet spirits.
i love that i have been blessed to have the Lord's hand in my dealings.
i am so blessed to be able to understand the personal revelations that He sends to me.
remember this post where i told you all we would be terminating our foster license?!?
maybe we should have waited...
They felt like home to me."
oh, how true this is.
when dealing with foster care, you never really know what you will be getting.
you never know what the outcome will be.
i have said it before, and i will say it again: we are NOT the typical foster case.
it is extremely rare to only have infant placements.
its even more rare for a couple to adopt 75% of their infant placements.
WE ARE NOT NORMAL!
can i share a secret with all of you without sounding pretentious?!?
before each of our babies came, i KNEW that they were coming.
some people call it mother's intuition, some people call it crazy... i just know that the Lord had his hand in the building of our family. he guided us at just the right time.
before each child came, i underwent a CRUSHING feeling- to the point that it was hard to breath.
i knew without a doubt that MY child was on its way to our family.
the only time i didn't have this confirmation was with our foster placement, RJ. he was never meant to be mine. he was meant to prepare me for life with 2 babies.... and he did a great job of that.
about 7 months prior to having miss d placed in our home, i woke Hubster up in the middle of the night in a dead sweat. i told him that i knew our child was on its way and we needed to find them. when we got the call about miss d, i had a week to prepare emotionally. (it was one intense week!) i went back and read my journal... the night i had that overwhelming "intuition" was the night miss d came into this world.
it was a beautiful revelation.
the day we met her, I RECOGNIZED HER SPIRIT.
she was so familiar. her face, her eyes, her smell! everything seemed like a vague memory.
the morning that sassy pants came home to us, i had that same crushing feeling while i was running errands with my dad. i actually made him drive around a neighborhood that i knew Tummy Mommy frequented. when we got the call that afternoon, it was a beautiful revelation.
when i held her, i knew she was safe.
when miss d smooched her cute little face, that recognition came flooding back.
I RECOGNIZED HER SPIRIT.
some people may think that sounds silly since the secondary goal was reunification and we had weekly visitation with Tummy Mommy. i think that spiritual recognition was CRUCIAL.
it was the Lord's way of preparing my heart for an open relationship with Tummy Mommy.
knowing that sassy pants was MY daughter, made it easy for me to bond with Tummy Mommy.
it made it easy for me to want to be with her and get to know her on a level i had not been able to do while we were fostering miss d. the funny thing is, I RECOGNIZED TUMMY MOMMY'S SPIRIT TOO! like she was always meant to be a part of my family, one way or another.
this same type of recognition happened with little man too.
i knew long before we got the call that our son was headed our way.
when he came, i was so worried about him leaving that i tried NOT to have those feelings.
i pushed them out of my head every chance i could.
but when we met with his birth mother and she would talk about adoption and what life would be like in the future, i started to let the Lord take over.
even though my heart wanted to believe that this sweet boy was part of my eternal family, i couldn't get my mind to let go and believe this.
the night before the TPR, i cuddled that sweet boy in my bed, and something about him...
the smell maybe.
I RECOGNIZED HIS SPIRIT in that moment.
at court the next day, his birth mother relinquished her parental rights.
i knew that he was home.
did anybody else RECOGNIZE their babies?!?
i love that i have been blessed with these 3 sweet spirits.
i love that i have been blessed to have the Lord's hand in my dealings.
i am so blessed to be able to understand the personal revelations that He sends to me.
remember this post where i told you all we would be terminating our foster license?!?
maybe we should have waited...
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